Tuesday, August 01, 2006

Being balanced is overrated

Hmmmm.. looking through some quotes from the TV show "Ally McBeal". Thought I'd share some quotes that I like:

Who wants to be balanced? Balance is overrated.

I like being a mess. It's who I am.

Even if I did get past all my problems, I'm just gonna get out and get new ones.

What makes my problems so much bigger than everybody else's? Their mine.

The world is no longer a romantic place. Some of its people still are however, and therein lies the promise. Don't let the world win, Ally McBeal.

Maybe I'm happy and I just don't know it.

The real truth is, I probably don't want to be too happy or content. Because, then what? I actually like the quest, the search. That's the fun. The more lost you are, the more you have to look forward to. What do you know? I'm having a great time and I don't even know it.

Here I am, the victim of my own choices. And I'm just starting.

At the end of the day, life is just this big wall of reality that we all crash into.

Everybody's alone. It's just easier to take in a relationship.

Maybe I'll share my life with somebody... maybe not. But the truth is, when I think back of my loneliest moments, there was usually somebody sitting there next to me.

Love. We all want it. Don't all get it. I remember telling my mother in high school I wanted to wait for the perfect girl. And she replied, "Idiot! Even if you found her, she might be holding out for the perfect man."

Today is going to be a...less bad day. I can feel it. Sometimes I wake up and know everything is going to be...less bad.

Sometimes...when you hold out for everything, you walk away with nothing.

If you think back and replay your year, if it doesn't bring you tears either of joy or sadness, consider it wasted.

I really hope he calls today, so I can hang up on him.

Where does it say that women can't act like men sometimes? I saw a cute piece of meat and I said to myself, you only live once. Be a man.

You know I just got this piano, sometimes I sing this song it's called goodnight my someone...and it's about...well, basically it's a love song about someone you never met but you know is out there. And I dunno we make so few promises to ourselves as we grow up and one of them is that on our wedding day we walk down the aisle with someone we love. Somebody who does make your heart bounce, I guess. And there are some promises that I think we have to keep.

Whoever said that plenty of fish in the sea thing was lying.
Sometimes there's only one fish. Trust me.

I think I need to believe that it works - love, couplehood, partnerships. The idea that when people come together they stay together, I have to take that with me to bed, even if I have to go to bed alone.

There are some people who meet that somebody that they can never stop loving, no matter how hard they try. I wouldn't expect you to understand that, or even believe it, but trust me, there are some love that don't go away. And maybe that makes them crazy, but we should all be lucky to end up with that somebody who has a little of that insanity. Somebody who never lets go. Somebody who cherishes you forever.

I can't do anything about it, but I'd be happy to sympathize.

It's not my style to care aobut others, but what's going on?

Wednesday, June 14, 2006

Support Network Neutrality

So, recently there's been a big deal going on about "Network Neutrality." Currently, legislation has been proposed and is being considered in congress - this legislation has the potential to change the internet as we know it today. Pooey... =p .... not good for the little people who like to surf the internet, not good at all.

In short, the big-bad-greedy telecommunications giants such as AT&T, Comcast, & Verizon (can you tell I don't like them?), who are our internet service providers, want to get legislation passed to make it legal for them to charge internet content provider such as Google, iTunes, etc. a not-too-small fee for being able to send data quickly and reliably. Baaaaad idea. Why?

Commercially,doing away with net neutrality will most certainly jeopardize innovation, entrepreneurship, and fair competition on the net (which has been the hallmark and very essence of the Internet and the 20th century 'digital' revolution itself), by skewing the odds greatly towards the big, established companies with deep pockets. How can any startup or enterprising entrepreneur with a great idea and little budget compete in a world without net netrality?

More importantly, the lack of net neutrality will jeopardize us as consumers and end users as well. For one, this extra cost to the content providers is sure to trickle down in one form or another to us - the unwitting consumers. Furthermore, we don't want them to control the contents or how fast we have access to them either - it's called freedom of information.

Imagine, picking up the phone and calling our favorite fast food place Super Mario's, but instead of Super Mario's, the big-bad-greedy guys will answer and say "Please hold for connection to Super Mario's .... but if you want to have Wario's we can connect you right away (becuase they paid us money)!" uh... but we had called for Super Mario's... to which they will reply "In that case, hold for connection please," and then we'll be on hold for who knows how freaking long.... now imagine this happing on the internet while we visit our favorite sites or check email, how frustrating would what be? (here's a really funny clip about 'net neutrality' too)

Now something's definitely wrong with that.

If we want Super Mario's & had already paid for the freaking phone line, then give us Super Mario's. Don't give us Wario's just because Wario's has paid up for faster connection. Geez, this is not what the internet is all about.

We need to keep the network neutrality that we currently have.

The big-bad-greedy guys have been putting all their resources and efforts into lobbying our congress members in DC (such as big campaign contributions, etc.), so we need to muster all the collective support we need as consumers and let our voices be heard.

Please, I urge you all join the fight and help keep the networks free (before our oh-so-wise congress votes otherwise...).

www.savetheinternet.com provides many ways to make our collective voices heard (write our congressmen, write our local newspaper, etc etc etc)

Thanks ~ !

Wednesday, June 07, 2006

mini me

Here's an avatar of myself that I've created using Design-her Gals website (I had seen one at The Muttering Muse). I have to say it's a pretty darn close imitation of real life, even G was impressed.... =)

Everything in the picture are items that I actually do have in real life (red glasses, silve ipod mini in pink case, heart-shaped silver necklace, black converse shoes, blue jean - too many to count, & black tops - I have quite a few of these too).

The only thing that's a little far feched might be the pink bag - all the other bags they had were too structured (not anything I would carry), most of the bags I have are soft & somewhat funky. Plus, I had picked the color mainly for asthetics, in real life I would have picked a more muted color like grey, black or navy.

Anyhow, the avatar is pretty much what I look like on a daily basis.

Tuesday, June 06, 2006

the orc-ant war : final battle, hopefully...

[see battles 1 & 2 first...] Alas, to my dismay, my small victory in the previous battle was a small victory indeed. More of the wretched little orc-ant scouts were sighted on the prowl in the kitchen at night. The spearmint gums were effective for only a few hours and then the orc-ants were back again, argh! So we took the last measure possible, removed the face plate, and spayed with (gasp!) insect spray/chemicals. Hopefully this will be able to ward them off for good, banishing them to the depth of the shadow realm (anywhere but my kitchen!!). Hopefully there will be peace in my kitchen tomorrow.

the orc-ant war : battle 2

[be sure to read account of battle 1 below first to be able to keep up with the action!] So the smudged black pepper paste didn't work very well and I had to resort to an alternate bane of ants - the spearmint gum. So now the 'door to the moria' is framed and reinforced with unwrapped spearmint gum. And surprisingly, it did keep the evil orc-ants away (I just want to keep them away, not kill them, because even evil orc-ants have a right to live, just not in my house, that's all). One small victory for me today... hehehe

the orc-ant war : battle 1

To my dismay I found ants in my kitchen this afternoon. Of course I wanted to get rid of them. After searching on-line, I read that black peppers will do it (I wanted to find a natural way that didn't involve chemicals, since it's the plug right next to the stove). Hence the black pepper paste (pepper with water) drawn around the outlet (source of the scout ants). Unfortunately it didn't work very well, hence the next picture. At this point the plug and the pepper paste looked a lot like a 'door to moria,' where the evil orc-ants dwell. Must contain evil orc-ants....

rational people do irrational things - all the time!

Sounds counter-intuitive?

Well, we do it all the time (at least I know I do...). It could be seen through the smallest decisions that we make, like eating a delicious piece of chocolate even though we know it'll come back to bite us in the ass, literally, later on; or wanting to sleep just a little longer and then waking up later with the slightest twinge of a headache from over-sleeping (very unpleasant... trust me, I know... people should not be expected to be rational when they are sleepy...).

The way I figure it, it's pretty much a problem of time,one of instant gratification versus delayed regrets. Yet we probably do it over and over again, all the time, many times a day, indefinitely. (I also highly suspect there's a factor of self-control or discipline involved, but let's not get into that now.)

So does this mean I'm not rational, of course not! I deem myself to be a perfectly rational person. It's just that sometimes people suffer short bouts of irrationality when they simply concentrate on the moment, you know, the here and now. I simply consider it ~ human. Plus, being irrational makes things more interesting (just don't be overly and thoroughly irrational, like taking-out-a-home-equity-loan-to-gamble-on-one-game-of-blackjack irrational, okay?).

So rational people of the universe - be irrational!
(picture of cute bear courtesy of Brys Bruins Collectable Bears)

Thursday, May 18, 2006

Bizarre celebrations ~ *

Here is a very cute-sie music video with just the right amount of violence and gore in it to make it whimsical and surprisingly endearing. Found this little gem on Welcome To Amyville's vlog. This is the kinda stuff that I love ~ ! (it's created by Kangaroo Alliance to the song of "Wraith Pinned to the Mist and Other Games" by Of Montreal). Enjoy ~ !

Random things...

Added more songs to radio.blog, click on any song to listen > > > >>>>
My grocery shopping list: random list of random things that I wanted to try n' cook.

One of the finished products - pickled cucumbers,
they actually tasted pretty good =D

also made miso soup with the miso paste pictured below (just added some soft tofu & chopped green onions). These also turned out pretty good (okay, so, I'm not a picky eater...) I wonder how long the box of miso paste can keep in the fridge (I only used 2 spoon full) ...
Last but not least, totally random picture of the day: ultraman & friends ~ !! (took them from a box of things that M was going to throw away...i just had to rescue them!!)

Wednesday, May 17, 2006

After much hard work and labor

I finally got my own radio.blog. YES YES YES ~~~~ !!!

I had seen one on An Aquarium Drunkard's blog, and much like a little kid enviously eyeing another kid's lollipop - "WAAA ~ ~ I want one too ~ !!! " So I clicked the link on the lower left corner of the radio.blog and entered the world of radio.blog.club....

After much trials and tribulation (being an html/web-design idiot
, it's pretty much a given....argh!) and almost pulling my hair out (why, oh, WHY doesn't the freaking **gritting teeth** URL link work?!?!? dang it!!) it finally worked, oh, such sweet redemption, muhahahaha ~ ! Very much pleased with myself at the moment, although the color seems a bit off... vell, a task for tomorrow.

Please, enjoy the fruit of my difficult labor. =)
(Although I highly suspect I'm the only person reading this blog at this point in time... anyhoo)

Tuesday, May 16, 2006

test, test, test...

and let there be sound ~ ~ =)

this is an audio post - click to play

In an effort to be frugal...

I've decided to cook my/our meals, which was usually a task reserved for the weekends, but now that I have more time on my hands and no income, it has suddenly become a very attractive idea. Plus, I've been wanting to improve my cooking skills anyhow. So, G unwittingly became the benefactor/victim of my sudden urge to cook.

On tonight's menu, we have beef curry ~ !! Something easy... hey, gotta start somewhere, right? I followed the directions exactly and roughly 30 minutes later, voila ~ !! Actually looks half decent, now how about the taste? Curry was good, but the beef was too chewy. It took me three times as long as usual to eat. (Hmmmm.. note to self: DON'T use beef shank next time, too ... chewy, plus add some carrots & potato for color.)

Okay so today's dinner actually turned out to be 'chewy' beef curry, but as with anything else, this is a learning experience. Next time I'll have 'just' beef curry.